Sunday, May 25, 2008

Regrets


I have not cried in a long time.

I did not think I could.

I have numbed myself so many ways

I think I often live in a daze

Self made.

Hard to admit one hurts

Or even to give that power away.

I’ve fashioned a cloak of midnight

That wrapped me out of sight

Self safe.

The universe colludes to expose

What we want hidden.

When your presence is real

My cloak disappears, reveals

Self pain.

Nothing can fill the void

Or numb the true pain.

I made bad choices in life

I failed at being a wife.

Self alone.

That’s not always a difficult role

It suits me, I think.

It’s just seeing you that I feel

I may have missed the real deal.

Self imposed.

So I’ll carry on as I am

Life is good, I am blessed.

Meant to be single, I guess.

I will continue to be my best

Self.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

I feel that regret is with everyone in some way....paths are taken, others left behind. I think realizing the steps taken in life is more than half the "battle" of personal growth. Continue the journey, loving others and yourself along the way and know that you ARE NOT ALONE.

love you,
Tricia