Split in Half

When I consider buying here I think of leading two lives;
Perhaps the double life would split my mind
Like halving logs for the fire,

And how do I have six month friendships?
I will be there for you depending on the season, I say,
Or can we just stick to email?

Two sets of doctors who would not
Communicate; can I manage that?
And they will all be too young anyway

Up north I am the big fish
In a little pond; everyone knows me
Could I disappear like a guppy in the sea?

A lot of people juggle dual lives
Without the angst, I am presuming.
But they're not single, going it alone.

When you're a couple you have company
Someone to be angry, happy, crabby with.
To travel with from north to south and home,

I'm not sure I want to leave Kankakee
For half the year, no matter how dear
The Florida sunshine treats me.

So buying isn't just a money matter
Rather do I want to split alone
And morph into a dual solo swan song,