Friday, November 9, 2007

What's up with Florida?

Why am I obsessed with getting to Florida? The weather is a factor, that 's obvious, but it isn't the whole truth and I am trying to understand what this is telling me about my life in Kankakee.
So what's different there? First, the weather, ok; let's leave that one alone for now.
So here's what else comes to mind without pondering: my brother and sister-in-law, no responsibilities, no doctor appointments, new friends to learn about, Park and Shar minutes away, days that have no schedule, shedding my stuff or more correctly leaving it behind, being anonymous at the grocery store, getting a break from hospice.

My brother and sister-in-law. I love spending time with them. Not only does it feel good to be with family all the time, they are both fun people to be with. We can talk about most anything even if we disagree. This year sharing a house will be different, but I'm sure we can talk about what is important to each of us and set up house rules that will make it work.
No responsibilities. There is a good reason why at this age people are supposed to retire and make room for the next generation. I am tired do being responsible for making things happen at the community level; I've put in my time. Not being a full time resident at Marco lets me off the hook on this and that freedom is what I enjoy.
No doctor appointments. I see so many doctors that going 3 months without doing that is a
treat. With any luck I won't have to see any down there.
I look forward to new people in my life; hard to make that happen here. I hope I get to know Carl and Margaret better; I will have new neighbors and there are Park and Shar's friends...I'm
planning on joining Shar's writing group.
Leaving most of my stuff behind: I have been wanting to simplify life and my surroundings; hard to do but for 3 months I live with just the essentials and, guess what? It simplifies life. Not being responsible for maintaining the house, etc.
Being anonymous. Having been a big fish in a little pond and living in the same community for34 years, it is refreshing to not have to play that role and not feel guilty about not doing it.
Being a Scorpio I have always been aware of death, but living with the director of Hospice really focuses on the subject. I like getting a break from hospice talk too.

I guess the summary is the change and the freedom and the lack of responsibility. It really is a 3 month vacation...who wouldn't love that?

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