Time on my mind

I have been hyper aware of time lately...how fast it goes (months whiz by); how much of it I waste; how little there seems to be left...how would I like to use it other than what I am doing now; knowing that I have a degenerative disease time does not favor.
I have been to too many wakes lately; I have my estate plan sitting on my desk for updating as Howard and I have made changes in how we are running the company. It seems there is only death in the news; I keep telling myself to not watch it, not listen to it, not read it every morning.
So many of my friends have serious ailments; the conversations (even at book club!) are nearly always about health, medicines, doctors, etc.
And Spring has been dragging its butt. Just when you think it's here for sure, the temperature flirts with freezing and the wind roars out of the north.
If only I didn't have to give up chocolate and sugar(doctor's orders to lose weight). This is probably not about deep dark thoughts, but just a case of withdrawal from my drug of choice!

I am reclaiming my freedom to consume chocolate...time is running out!

why do I do what I do?

I am leaving this am at 6 for a regional UCC meeting in Peoria. Why have I gotten myself into this situation? This is a question I find myself still asking frequently. Why haven't I learned this lessen by now? I am justifying this by telling myself that I will get to know better the people I am going with and that is a worthwhile use of my time.
I am having a hard time adjusting to my age and PD effecting my energy level and ability to take on multiple tasks. I want to be able to do what I have always done, but it is perfectly clear to me that I can't maintain the pace I used to; I just have to translate that knowledge into saying "NO"!

Maybe I need to practice "NO" every morning when I do my exercises!

Launching

It's official. I now have my own blog site and I can ramble on to all four of you without having to send emails individually. How do you like being "lumped" together as my very first audience?

Unless I let people know my blog address they won't see this, correct?

I thought the perfect start would be to list all the books I am currently reading; yes, I am almost always reading more than one at any given time. I know, that means I have too much time to read or I can't focus. Probably both.

INFIDEL by Ayaan Hirst Ali; a fascinating memoir by a women born in Somolia raised Muslim who was a victim of her tribes sexual mutilation at age 6 and grew up to escape to Holland where she became involved in politics and is on the hit list of extremist Muslims.

THE FIVE THINGS WE CANNOT CHANGE..and the Happiness We Find by Embracing Them by David Richo. Basically the things I used to repeat to my sons. I'm sure the author must be a Buddhist, but reading this is great confirmation for my own philosophy.

YOU ON A DIET.this ruling/ruining my life at the moment.

ANNIE FREEMAN'S FABULOUS TRAVELING FUNERAL by Kris Radish..this is the current selection for our book club of single women that is made up of mostly non-readers. How does that work? you say....very poorly.

THE RAZOR'S EDGE by S. Maughm...haven't started yet but this is selection of the serious readers book club...we really talk about the book!

Have I done it?

I've said I would do it. I've had it on my list waiting for cillic to help me.

I think I've actually done it on my own! Could that be true?